Torn...

I feel like I am being torn between five different sides of myself. I have the part that really wants to find a deeper relationship with God; the part that's yearning to see more of Him and truly connect with him on some intimate level. Then there is the part of me that wants to throw so much of what I am striving for away and just give up because it feels like nothing is happening the way I want it to. Really whats different about this situation compared to all the others that I have been in lately... really whats different!!!