I'm back...

So after a full four months even to the day I am back on blogger. These last four months have probably been the most eventful four months of my life. I have gone to hell and back... my faith has been dragged though the mud and I am to the point where I dont even know where I stand anymore. BUT... I am beginning to have hope once again. I am beginning to see God again and rejoice in his power. Don't get me wrong I can't sing about the way he helps us in times of trouble... but I have never lost faith in his supremacy. I lost the ability to hear God this summer... or at least I thought I did. In my darkest hour I could not find Him. I know now it is because I was not looking for Him in the right places but it still hurt. I cant stop loving Him though...

This summer I had some spectacular times... I had lots of nights of fun! Comforting new friends when their boyfriends broke their heart, dancing many nights away, feeling super sexy on the dance floor, tripping over my own feet, suntanning, getting paid to spend time with my favorite kind of teenagers... it was A*M*A*Z*I*N*G!! But in that I fell away from God, my family fell apart, and my friends were far away. I was decietful and honest, depressed and overjoyed, lonely but surrounded. It was a weird summer full of firsts and lasts. So at the end of August after many different plans I ended up moving back to Abbotsford (my home). I moved back to my family and things are going well. I am definately different then I was four months ago and I am facing new issues but I have a group of people that I know love me so it makes it so much easier!

I am going to try and post more often on this now... I dont think anyone I know will be reading it but it will be here. Thanks for all of you who have helped me survive the summer you know who you are :) LOTS OF LOVE!